The horrors unleashed on the United States of America Tuesday defy adequate descriptions.In the past 15 hours, i have seen a person plummet 80 stories to his death to escape those horrors. I saw the most prominent aspect of the world's most legendary skyline erased in less than two hours. At times, i could only think of it like the kindome or some las vegas casino being imploded, as an insulant against the reality of the thousands dead. Stories of innocent people trapped on guided missiles, who call their loved one for a final "i love you," before crashing headfirst into a bustling office building. Of fireman fighting a 110 story conflagration, only to be crushed as it is reduced to eight. The images make me hurt inside. I have spent the day "covering the event," taking quotes, calling officials, snapping the "dramatic picture." This, in a town 1,000 miles from the damage. Small town community reaction is as shocked and frightened, but, eerily, they go on with their lives. To compare pandamonium on a television screen with a tuba, practicing "Hey Baby" in reality created an eerie haze in my mind. where i totally new terrible things were happening, but never felt them, because i was wrapped in the cloak of a journalist. As i come home, i have time to reflect. I have time to process the enormity of all ive seen, though my every view is through a 19 inch window. My children and grandchildren will interview me about this day, i have to figure out what i'm going to say. I want to rail at the need to "PUNISH THOSE WHO ARE RESPONSIBLE!!" But, be serious. We aren't fighting a nation, at least not in the typical terms. While killing or apprehending Bin Laden might reduce the threat to American assets, anything less -- an attack on his lieutenants or bases -- is only a vague setback. He has a network that can easily cull more crazed Arabs eager to fight the holy war to the death, and that of American citizens. But that is unfair, no Arab has been proven responsible. My reflex is to assign blame, to create an enemy at which to focus pain. But, until a credible suspect is found, i can only hurt -- and, more importantly -- heal within. And keep working.
My prayers and thoughts are with all America